the retreat
I feel like such a failure. It was like home - working and worrying furiously at something with the expectations hanging over me, dark and unknowable - until I don't meet them.
I prayed so hard and came away so empty. It cost me so much and feel like I let everyone down. I know God was proud of me and that is enough. I don't feel it but it is true. I have to lay aside my feelings and perceptions and walk by faith.
How hard it is to keep going when you believe you are doing what God wants and your efforts fail.
I feel like such a failure. It was like home - working and worrying furiously at something with the expectations hanging over me, dark and unknowable - until I don't meet them.
I prayed so hard and came away so empty. It cost me so much and feel like I let everyone down. I know God was proud of me and that is enough. I don't feel it but it is true. I have to lay aside my feelings and perceptions and walk by faith.
How hard it is to keep going when you believe you are doing what God wants and your efforts fail.
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